Im through.
Im through with everyone and everything.
ive had it.
Ive done a lot, but im not here to lay claim to all ive done.neki kar aur kuen mein daal.(do good and forget about it) but i am tired now.
i cant help people anymore.
i cant help you feel good anymore.
i cant help you period
im tired. dont trouble me with your problems. dont unburden on me. i wont be able to take it. im a human. i have my own issues in life and i refuse to be your vent any more.
leave me be.
leave me be.
Friday, June 04, 2010
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
Happiness and the mind
I’m reading "bone" these days (which, btw I highly recommend to any comic book reader worth his salt).its an interesting story and comic. At the same time ive been contemplating humanity, as a race. As a single group of people. Ive come to the conclusion that, as a race as a certain type of people, we are to conniving, too self centered. Too selfish.
We think about ourselves. Our gains. Our losses. We don’t really care what’s happening in some one else's lives.we aren’t bothered. We aren’t even interested.
And look at us
There still isn’t any happiness. And I mean true happiness. I’m not talking about an ice cream cone fer gawds sake. I’m talking about the whole. The macro. And the overall.
Look at everybody. Struggling.fighting.running.to get somewhere. You never really get there. And what you do finally get...is a kind of a compromise in life. You never really get exactly what you want.
I mean some ppl do. Don’t get me wrong here.
Some people do get what they want.
But it’s never exactly what they always wanted.
If you know some one like this, walk up to them and ask them if it was exactly what they set out to achieve.
You will learn that there are sacrifices they made, which affect their overall happiness from the above mentioned achievement.
So coming back to bone.
There is this character called "smiley bone". And he’s always shown having a smile on his face. Grandma Ben describes him as "oh he has no brain". He’s happy throughout the comic.
He gets thrown out of his town. He’s happy. He’s trudging through the desert. He’s happy. He’s starving. He’s happy. He finds a new town. Ends up as bonded labor. He’s happy.
That got me thinking..
That if us humans (rumored to) have such well developed brains
We have achieved so much towards, science, technology, medicine. We put a man on the moon for god’s sake (at least in theory) and a machine on mars. But no happiness.
It comes in fleeting glances.
Think about it.
you see some one walking down the road smiling to himself, or laughing to him self and you go "Oh he’s lost his mind" or "crazy fool" or something to that effect.
But look at him. He’s happy. You are not.
He may not have shoes. He may be homeless. He may be hungry for 2 days. But he’s happy. Can you say the same about yourself?
Is that what it takes to be happy?
Losing your mind?
No bills no obligations. No family to remember. No worries.
It’s kind of sad. But only from a sane point of view.
Think of things from his viewpoint.
It’s not so bad.
But then again this is one mans opinion.
Have a nice day.
We think about ourselves. Our gains. Our losses. We don’t really care what’s happening in some one else's lives.we aren’t bothered. We aren’t even interested.
And look at us
There still isn’t any happiness. And I mean true happiness. I’m not talking about an ice cream cone fer gawds sake. I’m talking about the whole. The macro. And the overall.
Look at everybody. Struggling.fighting.running.to get somewhere. You never really get there. And what you do finally get...is a kind of a compromise in life. You never really get exactly what you want.
I mean some ppl do. Don’t get me wrong here.
Some people do get what they want.
But it’s never exactly what they always wanted.
If you know some one like this, walk up to them and ask them if it was exactly what they set out to achieve.
You will learn that there are sacrifices they made, which affect their overall happiness from the above mentioned achievement.
So coming back to bone.
There is this character called "smiley bone". And he’s always shown having a smile on his face. Grandma Ben describes him as "oh he has no brain". He’s happy throughout the comic.
He gets thrown out of his town. He’s happy. He’s trudging through the desert. He’s happy. He’s starving. He’s happy. He finds a new town. Ends up as bonded labor. He’s happy.
That got me thinking..
That if us humans (rumored to) have such well developed brains
We have achieved so much towards, science, technology, medicine. We put a man on the moon for god’s sake (at least in theory) and a machine on mars. But no happiness.
It comes in fleeting glances.
Think about it.
you see some one walking down the road smiling to himself, or laughing to him self and you go "Oh he’s lost his mind" or "crazy fool" or something to that effect.
But look at him. He’s happy. You are not.
He may not have shoes. He may be homeless. He may be hungry for 2 days. But he’s happy. Can you say the same about yourself?
Is that what it takes to be happy?
Losing your mind?
No bills no obligations. No family to remember. No worries.
It’s kind of sad. But only from a sane point of view.
Think of things from his viewpoint.
It’s not so bad.
But then again this is one mans opinion.
Have a nice day.
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
Downfall
People live through troubled times. troubled relationships. sibling, spouses, parents, relatives... even friends.
i see so many people with so much pain.
i see people living nuclear lives.in isolation.in suffering.and in pain.
i feel it too. from them and for them. and myself.
The best we can do is see them and learn from their mistakes, and their downfalls.
and then, feel better cuz we arent as fucked up as them... arent we??
compare your lives to others and try not be as screwed up as them. or thank your own lucky stars.
your call.
i see so many people with so much pain.
i see people living nuclear lives.in isolation.in suffering.and in pain.
i feel it too. from them and for them. and myself.
The best we can do is see them and learn from their mistakes, and their downfalls.
and then, feel better cuz we arent as fucked up as them... arent we??
compare your lives to others and try not be as screwed up as them. or thank your own lucky stars.
your call.
Friday, January 08, 2010
Existentialism
existentialism states that man exists and in that existence man defines himself and the world in his own subjectivity, and wanders between choice...
well said..
and choice is what has killed me.I cant help but feel what choices have defined me. ive had these thought before but i cant help them revisiting the cobwebs of my mind.
some how i have the feeling that a few choices here or a choice there might have turned my life better or worse. its tearing me apart and im going nuts. no one can help me. these pangs they come and go, and i feel i may be sick..i am. i feel perhaps it would have been better to have not made these choices and not have existed at all. Here is where nature plays a cruel trick on us. the inability to not make a choice. double negative?? i think not.
you now have a choice keep reading or leave.
betcha you're still reading.
I think there fore I am??
I choose therefore I am??
Choose! or better still dont..
Ive lost it and im gonna seek help..
well said..
and choice is what has killed me.I cant help but feel what choices have defined me. ive had these thought before but i cant help them revisiting the cobwebs of my mind.
some how i have the feeling that a few choices here or a choice there might have turned my life better or worse. its tearing me apart and im going nuts. no one can help me. these pangs they come and go, and i feel i may be sick..i am. i feel perhaps it would have been better to have not made these choices and not have existed at all. Here is where nature plays a cruel trick on us. the inability to not make a choice. double negative?? i think not.
you now have a choice keep reading or leave.
betcha you're still reading.
I think there fore I am??
I choose therefore I am??
Choose! or better still dont..
Ive lost it and im gonna seek help..
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