Existentialism

existentialism states that man exists and in that existence man defines himself and the world in his own subjectivity, and wanders between choice...

well said..
and choice is what has killed me.I cant help but feel what choices have defined me. ive had these thought before but i cant help them revisiting the cobwebs of my mind.

some how i have the feeling that a few choices here or a choice there might have turned my life better or worse. its tearing me apart and im going nuts. no one can help me. these pangs they come and go, and i feel i may be sick..i am. i feel perhaps it would have been better to have not made these choices and not have existed at all. Here is where nature plays a cruel trick on us. the inability to not make a choice. double negative?? i think not.
you now have a choice keep reading or leave.
betcha you're still reading.

I think there fore I am??
I choose therefore I am??

Choose! or better still dont..
Ive lost it and im gonna seek help..