my life is so MOFO frustrating right now its not even funny. i mean.its not takling the direction i want it to take.worst part...i dont know what direction i want it to go.
im shattered.
im broken.
im not the man i thought i was.
im not the rebel i thought i was.
im not the conformist either.
im torn.between the two!
i believe im the rebel and i give a damn.
but my mofo conscience sees to it that im " Mr. nice guy".
no bullshit!
i been "Mr. nice guy" all my life..
now i wannabe "Mr. I dont give a flying fuck"
i mean.
this is my life. now as i spaek.as i type.plannning the future..but what about now?
if im gonna be remembered by what i do then what have i done?
conformed!
tcha!!!
i hate my life & im a split personailty!
except that some one is in control i dont know who!
im afraid its the nerd.
and the rebel is gonna BLOW !
the rebel has had all he can take.the nice guy may have a physcotic IMPLOSION!
Yes! No!
he cant decide!
will he?
wont he?
and why is'nt life as simple as I say...i say "life is simple dont complicate it"...
well well what have we here ?...
shades of grey!
a sigh of despair and the overwhelming of fruitlessness, the frustration that accompanies it.
all waves wash over himlike an endless wave!
imagine standing on a sand castle of dreams..and the waves of despair, practicality and sorrow lap up to the walls of the castle then up to your toes takling back with them your hopes, desires, joy.
all into a hopless sea of sorrow despair and of course your tears.
and it tears you apart to feel your pain the fruitlessness and the same old "YOU CAN LOOK BUT DON'T TOUCH"
and "SO NEAR YET SO FAR" & the "haath ko aaya muh na lagaa" effect!
would having her in my life made a shred of difference?
would my sorrow have been joy or mirth?
no one knows...i guess maybe unless in some parallel universe the REBEL lives on!
Thursday, March 08, 2007
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