A maze ing

some times you just stand there as an observer and the world around you changes...some how kinda like looking through a chain link fence.....kinda like an outta this world optical illusion.
i walked to the bus stop this mornin and as i stood there with "the memory remains" blaring into my skull i briefly saw this world for what it was.
a flash of reality in this farce of a dreamworld we live in.
i saw that we built machines..incredibly accurate in what they are designed for...i mean did you ever stop to think how difficult it really is to make a vehicle go straight?
i mean 101 things can go wrong from a lopsided wheel to a slightly bent steering column....right down to ball bearings...but we manage it...

and then....we make the rules !!

who gave us the right to govern ourselves i ask you?
do you really think humans are that fuckin superior???
first we make a road...
then we make those nice short white lines on the road to make lanes and say pick one and drive...
ever seen a lab experiment with rats navigating a maze???
thats the reality i saw the world to be...
going where we are supposed to like rats.....
trapped in our nice white and yellow lines...
markings telling us to go slow and not to take a u turn...



you're trapped like a RAT!!!

my evil brain

its beautiful if you can understand how the body works.
its even more fascinating to see the brain in action.
especially when it wants release.
it can go to great lengths to bring up Gigs of videos and audios and stills in your brain to help block certain rather painful thoughts.
Im going through a rough patch here myself and ive been noticing that my brain isint workin with me....in fact i feel its working against me.
im tired of life.very tired.the fact that there is so much to do and see and feel just doesnt interest me any more...it doesnt.
its not that i wanna run from life, no thats not it..some how i dont see how many more decades of getting up in the morning and working out just another day, just to end it and wake up the following morning.
anyway back to my brain, any normal brain wud now coax the body with some adrenalin and some nice memories intermingled with a dash of hope and a sprinkings of dreams right about now.

but no! not my brain!! ....Supercalifragilisticexpialidocious up there has different ideas..it keeps me where i am , no blocking of the thoughts nothing.
now dont get me wrong its not what I want for myself...in fact i wud love to get outta this blue funk but what-to-do what-to-do...eh whaddajerk

of all the damn brains in the world i had to get the most sarcastic one